These past few days have been amazing. Yesterday was Kaley and I’s one year anniversary <3! She made me breakfast in bed and we hungout all afternoon. By hungout I mean we watched TLC all afternoon. John and his Dad picked Cora up around 3 o’clock. “I’m ganna keep her for a while.” Kaley-“I bet you ten bucks she’s back by tomorrow.” I said, noo. Sure enough. Either way, love my wittle ghoul. Safe and sound snoring round the corner. I had to work yesterday. Four to eight thirty. When I walked out of the store Kaley was parked right in front of the entrance, standing in front of the Soul, hands in her pockets, Bruno Mars blaring. My heart shuffled. Bondys voicemail made us smile. Got dressed in 2.2 and headed to Northsore to watch ‘Drive’ aka we went to watch Ryan Gosling. Kaley wants it. That man. THAT MAN. whatthefuckingH at his sexy. I don’t even like the word, ‘sexy’ it makes me feel awk. But yup. Him. Anyhow. We find seats where ever we want because we were the only ones in there! K decides she wants Rootbeer and next I know, Diana and Daniel are sitting next to me! Random Double. Too cute. We shared a large bag of popcorn and some chewy Jolly Rancher candy. Once we got in the car K asked me for some more. I told her I had eaten them all. Cos I so did. But she insisted and I knew. I felt and I felt it. My ring. eeeeeeee I love it so much. Butterflies. an deeen. I slept ALL day, practically. It was like a mini honey moon. We went to Trevs tonight and watched movies. I am wicked tired now. Kaley is already on snooze. Night guys.
“I will never be the woman with the perfect hair, who can wear white and not spill on it.”
Joni and I will be shuffling by the end of next week if it’s the last breathing thing we do. End.
That is frustrating. I am frustrated for you! I am really lucky in the fact that if my girlfriend and I have any issues- WE TALK ABOUT IT. No matter what. Clearly talking about it isn’t working. She sees your pain and still doesn’t step it up. Actions speak louder than words. Maybe knock the attention you give her down? Rock and a hard place. Hmm. HM. Hm :[
A pirates life for me. (and Kaley)
Yesterday I got thrown on the register on my 2cd day of work. (2 girls called in.) I haven’t even finished all of my testing yet ANYWAY. My manager was watching me check people out and this lady comes walking up with a basket filled with giant bags of feed..
“Don’t worry I got it MYSELF.” - lady with high pants and ultra tight bun.
“I’m sorry ma’am, it’s her first time on the register I can’t leave her up here alone.” - St. Pierre.
Once he walks off, I feel her eye ballin’ me. I meet her gaze and she says to me, “Your thong is showing.”
YOU GUYZ. I don’t wear thongs. They’re fuckin nast and way uncomfortable. Plus, I heard that thongs push poo particles up the front, NAH THANKS. Either way,
I apologized to her and she mutters, “No wonder he didn’t help me with my food.”
I slammed the register and told her she could shove her deer corn where the sun doesn’t shine!!!!!!!
Things have calmed down. Have they not? Then why do night after night I have nightmares about the people around me. EJ. Rylie. That. Kaleys father. Debbie. Sharks. Dying. Evil entities. Grief stricken. I need a gd job. Probably where all this self loathing is coming from. Not being able to buy things and provide. Fangs Crossed the Halloween Spirit store calls me back! I need to calm my ass. I have lost so much weight without even trying. I am being dramatic, honestly. I am calm. I just keep what hurts in too long, too pushed back and when it comes out I am just an emotional mess and for the most part can’t even get out the words why. Which is okay too. A good cry. A good scream into your pillow does the body good. Kaley and I ordered the first season of the L word. Once I get this little miss hyper to bed, relaxtion can begin :)
My first pair of Hallween socks for the season thanks to the one and only JONI. <3!
Starting to get noivos about The Fright Night interviews at 3.
Really random week. Emotional death coaster. I started to really feel sorry for my legs so I finally shaved them. EJ is mad at me and won’t let Rylie be with me this weekend. Johns Mom wanted Cora for the weekend so she’s in Port A.. Kaley says mommas need breaks too but when they aren’t around, I feel completely lost. Now. Sinking chest. Cleaning the same thing I cleaned only an hour prior. I can’t even read a book. My mind races and yet I can’t even tell you what I just thought. Joni came over this morning. We watched Basketball Diaries. After she left Kaley and I watched The Beach. Creep for Leo. Now she’s asleep and it’s quiet again. Hm.